Over the last week my parents have gone to court and I finally get to see my dad on regular visits. But I no longer have Wednesdays or Sunday overnights. But on other words my mom has decided to buy me a ticket to Virginia causing me to miss another week of school and you might ask why I am going over there but I would say it is because my step grandpa is getting brain surgery. I mean I would love to see him but I don’t want to see people sad and I don’t want to have another week of makeup work. But I’m getting ahead of myself. Before I was even told about this trip my mom had told me that I couldn’t come because I couldn’t miss any more school but nooo she decided to take me anyway because she can do whatever she wants and then she decided to make it a court order that my dad had to buy me a return ticket and she bought the ticket before she even asked me if I wanted to go and that really ticked me off.
So yesterday I called her if I could not go and her answer was that we would talk about it on Monday when she is flying back for a couple hours before she flies out again. So on Monday I will try to talk her out of taking me but she will make me go against my will and I really wish she would listen to me and why doesn’t she just get a refund for the ticket? I want to go to school for the first time in a long time and I want to hang out with my friends. I don’t want to go watch people cry and I most of all don’t want to watch a brain surgery. I mean I would love to see my step grandpa but I don’t want to see him go in the or.
So over the past month and a half I haven’t been able to see my dad but finally on March 8. I was so excited to see him I cried when I saw him and during this time I didn’t get to see him I was so infuriated at my mother that people were starting to assume that I was depressed and were starting to notice changes in my behavior and I was slowly becoming a worse and worse kid and I was making stupid choices and I have an f and c in school. I was beginning to doubt that I was ever going to see my dad again I missed him so much that I was crying myself to sleep and waking up multiple times during the nights and would either be crying or have a terrible headache from all the stress in there.
I was beginning to resent my life and haven’t really been the same since I am feeling different changing into something I’m not something forced upon me. I miss how it used to be and if I had one wish it would be to make them get along again that’s all I want that’s all I am asking for that is all I need. My step dad is home and it is making me nervous to talk to my dad because I have to talk on speaker phone and record our conversations it sucks. I haven’t talked to my dad on the phone since Jon got home.
I really miss what I and my mom had but it will never come back and will only get worse from here.
February 8, 2009 – 10:02 pm
Today I went riding out at the lake I had a blast but I am getting ahead of myself. Last night I got the privledge to go spend the night at my grandmas house we watched eagle eye and ate mcdonalds (yeah my burger fix) I live for their burgers and nuggets they are delicious. I kind of made her mad this morning when I acxidentaly portrayed that I was a miserable dungeon captive who is condemned to jail for 2 weeks but that’s not how I feel I am sorry I gave all you listeners that image I really don’t feel that way. I mean I miss my dad an all but it is livable with out him I mean I hate it and it sucks but I can deal with it.
Dad I miss you and the rest of my other family but I can deal. I got to see all the rest of my family but my dad I really miss him and out too michelle Adam and even you martin I can’t wait to see you again but I will deal don’t worry about me I am happy enough doing what I am over here it is kind of weird being over here on Wednesdays though:).
Grandma I love you and am sorry for this morning but I really didn’t mean that and I changed this because I felt like a jerk and felt bad. I love you and I would understand if you are mad at me. I made a big mistake and I hope it doesn’t effect our relationship miss you and hope I see you soon.
Ok so back to my day today we went riding out on the gas lines and were out from like noon to two then went back out for another hour and left for home but on the way back from the second trip the motor on darrens four wheeler started smoking and running really bad because it was out of oil funny huh;). Well In ghourst we got detoured because of the huge accident by the airport and had to go around the long way well that is pretty much my day
February 8, 2009 – 8:32 am
Riding is so fun I can’t wait to go today it will be so fun so what is our happy place mine is out on the trails on my dirt bike. I have been trapped at home and deprived of visits with my dad because of some of my choices I get to see him next Friday I am excited to see him I miss him so much and I have had to record our conversations it really sucks. I wish I could see him right now I miss him so much. I don’t know if he realizes how much I miss him it feels like I am navigating my life without any senses or a brain I miss having someone else than my counselor to talk to man I hope I can see him sooner an that this works out for the better I miss my entire other family. Do you miss me?
January 19, 2009 – 11:00 am
Yesterdy I went riding and decided to cross a lake. Man was that a stupid idea. I almost sunk into the lake. The water was up to my seat at it’s deepest, but I kept going. I hit a stump in the middle of the lake that almost knocked me off the bike into the water. When I made it to the other side I was too scared to come back across so Darren (My Awesome uncle) had to go find a trail to get me back across the lake in a shallower spot. An hour later he finally found a trail to get me back across.
When I got back to the cabin I took off my boots and water spilled out of the right one but the left one was dry. I took off my socks off and the right one was soaked through and the left one was dry as a bone. It took hours for my feet to warm up.
here is a picture of me, much dryer, in my ridding gear. My grandparents me the new gear for a graduation present this summer.
January 17, 2009 – 9:56 am
So today I recently tried to hack my iPod touch 2g (second generation) using quickpwn which claimed to be able to hack it but instead it just said firmware error string. Does anybody know of a program that works?
January 13, 2009 – 5:09 pm
I love this app called backgrounds here are more of the funny pics I have found
January 13, 2009 – 5:07 pm
I found this picture in the app called backgrounds it is free and has tons of pics like this one and many others
January 13, 2009 – 5:06 pm
Today I went to counseling and played parcheesy with Bruce and we talked about my school and any upcoming projects
January 12, 2009 – 3:50 pm
We got some great new cabinets at my moms they are a dark oak and we got new counters it is a laminate granite.psch posers with the laminate my dads got the real thing
